I have been putting off writing this post for a week, because I just didn't know how to put it in words.I have mentioned before that my faith has been faltering lately. Actually not just lately, it is an on again off again thing for me, as I struggle with many things. I do believe in God. I do believe in Jesus Christ our Lord who died on the cross for us.I do pray every single day and I do not always refer to my bible, in fact I don't read it much. I do have a daily devotional that I refer to. So I've been struggling, things have been rough, I have not been the best parent, wife, person that I can be. I have a hard time forgiving myself so how could He possibly forgive me. I often talk to God while I am driving, or doing dishes. I have asked Him many a time to send me a sign. I had lost that feeling where you can sense His presence. I had lost that. It is a horrible feeling. I have an empty spot in my heart. I know it's there, I have felt it before. So I have asked for many a sign. I wanted that feeling back. There is no better feeling that the presence of the LORD. Well, on a night last week, which so happened to be yet another rough night. I was sleeping with my little guy. The phone rang at 3:17 am. At first I thought I was dreaming, but it kept ringing. I got up, a little scared, because we all know what kind of phone calls come in the middle of the night. I answered it ..and the call went as follows.
Me: "Hello?"
Caller: " You have received a text message to your land line from (some number I was too sleepy to remember) To hear your message press one"
Me: pressed one
Caller: " I AM GOD"
then it clicked..hung up.
I was shocked. Could that have been my sign. Was that phone call for me? No one else answered it. No one else heard it. But the proof was on the phone. On caller ID it did show a number at that exact time. I had the shivers. My son got up and I told him. He said, "mom now I'm freaked out" He checked the phone and sure enough there was a number. Neither of us wanted to call it back. I again wondered, was it really a sign or was it just someone goofing around. Who would do that? I went to bed with that feeling I had been missing. It was a sign.
" And all things, whatsoever ye shall ask in prayer, believing, ye shall receive"
MATTHEW 21:22
Thursday, January 22, 2009
Thursday, January 15, 2009
Looking Back In Order To Move Forward
"We need to look back in order to move forward".....
I read these words today in a devotional I received and realized that this is what we do at the end of every year as we set "resolutions" for the new year upon us. We look back and see what we did and did not accomplish..what we still want to do better....what changes we want to make...what goals we want to achieve. This is not a bad thing ~ setting goals and working to achieve our dreams give us incentive. But what gives us peace and hope for all the tomorrows ahead in 2009?
Maybe, when we look back over 2008, we need to be able to see the many blessings that God has bestowed on us. The way things have worked together for good, the prayers that have been answered in His wisdom. Seeing how God has worked in our lives over the past year, gives us the hope and strength to be able to walk forward in 2009.
I keep a gratitude journal. One ritual I have is to look back over the year that has past at what I have been grateful for. It is a testimony of how God has blessed my life and the lives of those I love and care about.
Being able to see the blessings that God has showered us with may be more important than ever in 2009. Our country is still at war, the economy is the worse in too many years to count, and life seems to get harder and harder for many people.
And yet, we can look back and see what God has done. Next year we will be able to do the same. No matter what is ahead, we are not alone, for God walks with us and He holds our lives in His hands.
Renee
I read these words today in a devotional I received and realized that this is what we do at the end of every year as we set "resolutions" for the new year upon us. We look back and see what we did and did not accomplish..what we still want to do better....what changes we want to make...what goals we want to achieve. This is not a bad thing ~ setting goals and working to achieve our dreams give us incentive. But what gives us peace and hope for all the tomorrows ahead in 2009?
Maybe, when we look back over 2008, we need to be able to see the many blessings that God has bestowed on us. The way things have worked together for good, the prayers that have been answered in His wisdom. Seeing how God has worked in our lives over the past year, gives us the hope and strength to be able to walk forward in 2009.
I keep a gratitude journal. One ritual I have is to look back over the year that has past at what I have been grateful for. It is a testimony of how God has blessed my life and the lives of those I love and care about.
Being able to see the blessings that God has showered us with may be more important than ever in 2009. Our country is still at war, the economy is the worse in too many years to count, and life seems to get harder and harder for many people.
And yet, we can look back and see what God has done. Next year we will be able to do the same. No matter what is ahead, we are not alone, for God walks with us and He holds our lives in His hands.
Renee
Friday, January 2, 2009
Letting Go and Getting On
Hello
My name is Renee and I have been given the privilege of posting here at this inspirational blog. I am a wife, mother, grandmother, writer, and blessed to be a child of God. May you find peace, joy, and God's love expressed here.
It is the last day of the year...2008 ~ my goodness! I remember when I waited for 2000 and wondered if we really would have some kind of chaos as was predicted...it did not happen. And here we are looking at 2009 already! Before we welcome a new year, I think it is a good time to let go...let go of past resentments, let go of the guilt we may hold on to, let go of disappointments and lost expectations."Today is a good day to accept God's forgiving grace for mistakes and shortcomings of the past year and get on with life"~ I just read these words today in a devotional and they seemed to go right along with my posts on forgiveness and resentments. Think how free we will be when we enter a new year without carrying those heavy burdens of guilt and resentment. A fresh start! I like fresh starts! May your final day of 2008 be one of peace.
My name is Renee and I have been given the privilege of posting here at this inspirational blog. I am a wife, mother, grandmother, writer, and blessed to be a child of God. May you find peace, joy, and God's love expressed here.
It is the last day of the year...2008 ~ my goodness! I remember when I waited for 2000 and wondered if we really would have some kind of chaos as was predicted...it did not happen. And here we are looking at 2009 already! Before we welcome a new year, I think it is a good time to let go...let go of past resentments, let go of the guilt we may hold on to, let go of disappointments and lost expectations."Today is a good day to accept God's forgiving grace for mistakes and shortcomings of the past year and get on with life"~ I just read these words today in a devotional and they seemed to go right along with my posts on forgiveness and resentments. Think how free we will be when we enter a new year without carrying those heavy burdens of guilt and resentment. A fresh start! I like fresh starts! May your final day of 2008 be one of peace.
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)
LinkWithin
