I didn't just say I was going to change.
I became involved in my church, volunteering any way and everywhere I could. At first, I think I was just trying to replace the hole in my heart that I felt after realizing the massive flaws in humanity, but somewhere in my volunteering and teaching at church, a real internal change came over me.
I can almost mark the day it happened, or atleast the event. I had become the youth leader in our church and was having a youth group meeting with a rowdy bunch of 4th, 5th and 6th graders (as well as all of my children). Myself and the other leaders decided to show a movie to the kids called Facing The Giants. None of us had ever seen it before, but we had heard great reviews from the local Christian book store.
So, we sat down to watch it with the kids, a room full of them, munching away on popcorn, & the leaders trying to hush them so we could all hear... and suddenly, the room was quiet.
For the entire movie.
We were captured in this story.
The entire room full of adults and kids were inspired.
When the movie ended, everyone was crying, even 13 year old boys. We all openly wept and talked and prayed on what we had just seen and felt.
The message in the movie...Nothing is impossible with God.
Those 5 words have become the words I live by.
If ever I am feeling doubtful about anything life throws my way, I know I can open the bible to Luke and find comfort.
And, if ever my kids see me or one of their siblings faltering in faith, we watch Facing the Giants together and it binds us together through inspiration & knowing that truly nothing is impossible with God.