I have been putting off writing this post for a week, because I just didn't know how to put it in words.I have mentioned before that my faith has been faltering lately. Actually not just lately, it is an on again off again thing for me, as I struggle with many things. I do believe in God. I do believe in Jesus Christ our Lord who died on the cross for us.I do pray every single day and I do not always refer to my bible, in fact I don't read it much. I do have a daily devotional that I refer to. So I've been struggling, things have been rough, I have not been the best parent, wife, person that I can be. I have a hard time forgiving myself so how could He possibly forgive me. I often talk to God while I am driving, or doing dishes. I have asked Him many a time to send me a sign. I had lost that feeling where you can sense His presence. I had lost that. It is a horrible feeling. I have an empty spot in my heart. I know it's there, I have felt it before. So I have asked for many a sign. I wanted that feeling back. There is no better feeling that the presence of the LORD. Well, on a night last week, which so happened to be yet another rough night. I was sleeping with my little guy. The phone rang at 3:17 am. At first I thought I was dreaming, but it kept ringing. I got up, a little scared, because we all know what kind of phone calls come in the middle of the night. I answered it ..and the call went as follows.
Me: "Hello?"
Caller: " You have received a text message to your land line from (some number I was too sleepy to remember) To hear your message press one"
Me: pressed one
Caller: " I AM GOD"
then it clicked..hung up.
I was shocked. Could that have been my sign. Was that phone call for me? No one else answered it. No one else heard it. But the proof was on the phone. On caller ID it did show a number at that exact time. I had the shivers. My son got up and I told him. He said, "mom now I'm freaked out" He checked the phone and sure enough there was a number. Neither of us wanted to call it back. I again wondered, was it really a sign or was it just someone goofing around. Who would do that? I went to bed with that feeling I had been missing. It was a sign.
" And all things, whatsoever ye shall ask in prayer, believing, ye shall receive"
MATTHEW 21:22
7 comments:
Wow! Came over from SITS! He is bigger than all we can ask or imagine, isn't he?
Sometimes the world gets in our way when we are trying to "Be still and know" that He is near. I have felt the same way this year. It is very scary, but things started to change for me. I made some tough decisions and have changed some things in my life to better "hear" him. I will pray for you that you will feel Him near again. Take care. Cheryl
Over from SITS...
When I feel like this (often) I remind myself that He is faithful even when I am not. It doesn't depend on me, my feelings, or the strength of my faith, but His grace alone. As for these feelings- very few get through life without this experience at some time. In the end even this "works for the good of those who love Him" (even if it is only to keep us humble).
Beautiful, beautiful post Lisa.
Thank you so much for sharing.
I think everyone gets that feeling occassionally and it's so good to find the Lord again, even if it comes in the form of a phone call at 3am.
Blessings!
How awesome is that? ;)
I just started the Beth Moore, "Esther" study and right away Beth talked about those times when it seems like God is distant..you can't find Him although you KNOW He is there...all of us those have those moments (even Beth!)
I will continue to pray that God will draw you near to Him. That you will walk in fullness incomparable to what you have been able to "feel" before.
Blessings & Peace to you!
Shanda (Your SISTa & Sister in Christ)
WOW!
The signs are where we find them, or when they ring!
Great post, and love your honesty and candor, Sharlene. :) Thank you.
THAT WAS A WONDERFUL STORY! I LOVE THAT GOD IS NOW SENDING TEXT MESSAGES--HE'S GOT TO KEEP US WITH US SOME HOW, DOESN'T HE??!!!!
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